My dearest Kiki..

Oh Kiki.. I wish I knew how it was to be the perfect mum to you.

As I sit here in the office thinking of you and all I have done for you or done to you, I feel like crying and wanting to erase and do things back again. Correcting whatever mistakes and making right whatever I think I did wrong.

Now that I'm pregnant, sometimes it gets quite overwhelming for me. Even doing simple things get harder to do as your adik grows.

Oh Kiki.. please know that I'm trying my best and I'm sorry for all the incompetencies and not-so-perfect way of raising you. I promise I'll learn better ways to raise you.

Please know that I really love you.